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Thursday, October 4, 2007 . 2:07 PM

I'm gonna be very open and honest in this post. I NEVER EVER talk to anyone about my dreams; but today I've decided that last night's dream has more significance and importance in the social department than ever before. And I'm not exactly an expert on stuff like this so I better let it out before I explode. Before I begin here's an F.Y.I: I've never dreamt of anything like this before in my life. Ever.

I start the dream by being in someone's living room watching TV. Its probably a girl's living room. I just felt that it belonged to a girl. As I open my eyes in the dream, everything else a blur other than the sofa, coffee table, the TV and the girl. Strangely enough, there was a couple sitting on the sofa watching TV with us. The girl and I were on the carpeted floor watching TV as well. I remember the couple on the sofa were having a nice time watching TV together.

After a while, the couple disappear and I'm left with the girl watching TV. For some reason, the girl and I started getting close to each other, still sitting on the floor. As we watched TV, I suddenly found ourselves leaning against each other, feeling very calm, fulfilled and content. Then my head leaned slowly to her shoulder; the second my head was resting on her shoulder, I knew who the girl was. It was Kasey Shoff (Kevin's sister).

I was pleasantly surprised yet still calm and happy. We stopped watching TV and started cuddling on the floor with me brushing her hair with the back of my hand, and whispering sweet nothings into her ear. All this time she didn't speak but just smiled and looked at me with her brown eyes. Somehow I could see that she was wearing a blue t-shirt. After a while I had this feeling that I had to leave her. It wasn't something serious nor was I sad to leave. Something was making me leave that living room. I kissed her forehead to say goodbye but she started to kiss me back on my lips.

I felt wonderful as I started to kiss back but I felt that something starting to pull me away from her. I felt neither regret nor sadness. The living room was slowly engulfed in a colour darker than black and I reappeared somewhere else.

This time I was standing in Kar Ho's garden at the car park rooftop. And I wasn't alone; Sam was standing in front of me. But this time I felt so much sadness and guilt. The moment I saw her, I started crying like I had lost everything in the world, like nothing else mattered to me anymore. I couldn't stop crying and crying; tears just kept pouring out and all I could do was sob. Sam walked up to me, hugged me and I hugged her back like there was no one else left in the world. I hugged her so tightly and never ever wanted to let her go again.

As I just stood there crying and hugging her, there was so many things I wanted to say, so many truths I wanted to reveal. But I couldn't because I was sobbing and shuddering.

Sam comforted me and I slowly felt better; but one thing remained. I still felt empty inside of me, as if I had nothing left to live for.

Kar Ho's garden began to black out and I knew it was time for me to leave again. I hugged her until I couldn't see her in the darkness.

Once again, the blackness dissolved and I straight away I knew who was with me this time. The surroundings were a strange fusion of her home and Temasek Poly. I looked around me and I saw Grace Lee standing a distance away from where I was. She didn't seem to know that I was watching her. She looked like she was waiting for someone along the side of the road.

A few moments later, a guy who's face I couldn't see came up to her and she smiled. They walked off holding hands and I just stood there watching. This time I felt nothing - without emotions. Although I knew who she was, I saw her as a stranger from the streets.

I turned and started to walk away. I welcomed the blackness to take me away now.

Thats the end of my dream. The next thing I know was me being rudely woken up by my stupid gay bro screaming and shouting at my maid for waking him up for school.
I so seriously wanted to go up there and beat him senseless and buy him a coffin.