Thursday, April 30, 2009 . 4:01 AM

It's 4am and I'm up watching Manchester United - Arsenal.

and

I miss you.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009 . 6:12 AM

Woke up smiling again. Can't stop thinking about last night. tee hee. Sorry about the green tea!! Hahaha...Have to go bathe and get ready for school now..curse the moron who decided to start lectures at 8am..

P.S: What a brave soul you are indeed =) I don't think I would ever dare to ask that question. But you did and now I am so damn happy. (My first ever too!!)

Tuesday, April 28, 2009 . 10:56 PM

I am so happy. Exhausted but so very extremely super happy. That's all I have to say. I could probably be that baby sun from Teletubies.

Monday, April 27, 2009 . 1:43 AM

I'm planning a small side project...it's a surprise and our schedules are tight but I'll try my best to make it work...hopefully you'll enjoy it =)

Sunday, April 26, 2009 . 11:39 AM

It's been a long long while since I've woken up smiling. And not like a "getting pay today" smile...it's a "WOOOOOOOOOO-HOOOOOOOO-THIS-IS-THE-BEST-DAY-OF-MY-LIFE" smile...

Dadeedum...and 5 mins after reading that sms I had a Albert Einstein super inspiration for my project. Working on it right now...my drawing sucks big time...my wheelchair looks like some disfigured motorbike after a horrible crash...

Always look on the bright side of life =D

Saturday, April 25, 2009 . 11:52 PM

I feel so guilty...after what I said last night...after making you cry so much...

But now..I miss you so terribly..it's only been 24 hours and I feel so empty inside already...went to work just now and I felt so lost...like a man without a purpose...

I keep staring at my phone...wanting to call you but I'm afraid I might make things worse...

I stare at my phone, pick it up, dial your number but hang up before it starts ringing.

I just want to hear your voice again. Look forward to your messages.

Take your time and don't rush your decision.

*Cross my fingers and hope it's me*

Thursday, April 23, 2009 . 4:00 PM

To that special YOU:

I just got back from school, showered right away, sat down at my desk and started typing this.

I want you to know that my previous post was not about you doing anything to hurt me in any way. It was about me not being able to cope with things that have to do with my heart and my emotions. Like I said earlier, Kee Kee has been comparing me with your ex for quite some time while we were working together. I never took anything he said seriously but when he told me that your ex was trying to get back together with you I started to worry.

Was I worried? I was. I definitely thought that I didn't stand a chance especially with someone you've been with before. But I was a lot more worried about you. I was worried about what might happen to you if another guy became involved. Will you be confused or sad or guilty? I didn't know how you would feel and I didn't know if you were willing to give your ex another chance.

I was feeling quite horrible. I couldn't sleep well for a couple of nights and I kept thinking about it. But after the first couple of times we spent time together and you told me you enjoyed it, I started to tell myself that I should fight for my chance. This is what I meant by "It hurts to go through a huge volley of emotions in 24 hours.". It basically meant that my emotions were going up and down like a roller coaster and it was hurting me. It's not your fault at all...it's just me and my insecurity.

There's one thing I want you to be perfectly clear about: You are not a passing fling. I really like everything about you, just the way you are. I meant everything that I've said and everything that I've done. I enjoy every single moment with you whether it's at work or outside!!

I'm sorry if you don't understand my blog but please don't feel bad about it. When I'm alone I tend to use words that most people don't understand. Most of my posts are actually me talking to myself. (Don't laugh!!). I didn't realise that you felt so strongly about this and I promise to change the way I write/type.

You've said before that the both of us are quite different from each other and that's true. I'm not denying it or hiding from it. If we really enjoy spending time with each other, why should we stop because we're different from each other? We've only known each for a short period of time but I'm really looking forward to us spending more time with each other. I want to spend more time with you and learn everything about you.

I want to know what your favourite foods and drinks are. I want to know what you like to watch on TV when you're at home alone late at night. I want to know your likes and dislikes. I want to know what makes you happy and what makes you sad (so I can avoid those things!). I want to know what makes you giggle like a little girl. I want to know what makes you smile and your toes curl.

I'm sorry that you've been spending so much effort trying to understand me and it doesn't work. I want you to know that we can always talk whenever you want to. You can call me or I can call you if you want to. Any day, any time, any where. If there is ever anything that you don't understand, don't be afraid to ask me. I will never turn you down or hide anything from you.

I think that's about all there is to say so far...I wanted to talk to you face to face but since I promised you last night that I wouldn't go down to OYP, this is the next best thing I could think of. If there's anything more you want to talk about, call me!!

P.S: My class waited 2 hours for that stupid lecturer and in the end we gave up and just went home. Imagine if we waited for the whole 5 hours for him!!

P.P.S: You are Esther Tan Yue Ling. You will never be a burden in my eyes.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009 . 8:32 PM

If there ever was a weak point I have, this is it. All you have to do is prod it and I go haywire.

It hurts to go through a huge volley of emotions in 24 hours. I'm not kidding. It actually physically hurts the heart.

How to put up a fight against so many?

Scorn at my insecurity because I do too. One moment I think there is even a slightest chance and the next I feel like an ant trying to crawl up Mount Everest.

Its 1.45am and I'm up after going to bed at 10pm...guess I've gotten used to working night shifts at Botak Jones now..have to re-sync my body clock to school hours...

Gonna watch an episode of 24 to get me in the mood to sleep again..Gotta get up at 8am to open up shop..No school on Tuesdays!!

Friday, April 17, 2009 . 12:58 PM

My beautiful baby...I'm just waiting for the day to get into you..touch you..feel you..caress you...stroke you..kiss you...



I promise to you...I will have you at all costs...I will cry the day I have that key in my hand and I will take care of you forever until the end of time...

Soon sweetheart...soon...be patient..

Thursday, April 16, 2009 . 12:12 PM

Had a pretty great time last night if you ask me...although there were a few bumps here and there, I really enjoyed it overall...hope you did too =) Looking forward to the next time =)

So...Another stunner from United's No. 7 has brought us into the Semi Finals of the Champions League. Being drawn against Arsenal, I think we have a much easier opponent compared to Inter and Porto. Now that we've broken Porto's famous home record of never losing to an English team, we should have confidence and move forward. That Quintiple dream is edging closer and closer as the season comes to an end.

Monday, April 13, 2009 . 2:21 PM

I think...I can't do it...As more information is sprawled across my desk I realise my initial decision is not a very smart move. I'm grateful I haven't gone through with it and I still have time to back out and make amends.

Saturday, April 4, 2009 . 7:37 PM

Gonna post about my very regretful outing with my NP classmate Jing Xiong aka JX aka Chang aka Kent's bestfriend... Went out a couple of weeks ago with him to watch the Fulham match (which we lost 2-0 with 2 red cards) at the old Crab Shack at Thomson Road which we thought was still open...anyway, I picked him up at about 8pm and we had time to kill so we decided to head down to Geylang to check out the "chicks" and make a video of "Her Majesty" (Her Mash). "Her Majesty" for those who don't know is a club along Geylang Road which of course provides services of a sexual nature. One of our classmates went there once with his own friends about a year ago and since then we haven't stopped teasing him about it.

So we drove past the hot spots looking at girls and then went further down and spotted "V2" (Tew tew tew tew) and "Looker's" which Jing Xiong went a couple of times to drink with his friends. A few hundred meters down, we spotted "Her Majesty" and we started recording the drive by and making fun of the other classmate. Once we had our fun, we passed a huge durian stall and Jing Xiong was "EH. I feel like eating durian. Lai la hor." and I was feeling a little peckish myself so I thought why not?

We parked a couple of blocks away and headed towards the stall. There was a huge row of durians ranging from 3 for $20 (D24) to $22 for 1 (King Mountain Cat). We wanted to get a taste of what really good durians were like; so we asked for a $18 King Mountain Cat. The guy brought one down and chopped open a small part of the shell and offered us to try a little before deciding to buy it, in case we didn't like the taste. It was extremely sweet and very very aromatic and we were hooked onto it. We told the guy we would have it. The next thing he did nearly stopped my heart; he placed the durian on a weighing scaled and pulled out a calculator.

Apparently an English speaking fella and a Chinese speaking fella together could not make out that they sold that particular range of durians by weight. The damn thing weighed 2.3Kg and we had to pay $40 after discount. Original was $42. Holy shit.

That was the most expensive food I have ever paid for in my 20 years on this planet. $40 for a frigging durian. We ate about 3/4 of it and Jing Xiong was feeling alot of pain in deep in his wallet and heart so he brought the rest back home. And the car smelt of durians the whole time.

Holy mofo. $40 for a mountain cat. This is really the king of all fruits. D24 is not longer the "exotic" range people. You have money? Go buy mountain cat when its in season.