Sunday, October 14, 2007 . 8:14 PM
Its back to school tomorrow...dammit...the 2 month holiday was great but I don't want it to end...zzz..Its very much more relaxed this semester...only Monday I get class from 8 to 5..every other day it starts around 9 or 10 and ends by 2 or 3...weeeeee!! And I've got one less module this semester too!! Plus there's no ELTECH!!WOOOOO!!! There's Analogue Electronics though...hope it isn't like Electrical Technology...killer/stupid module...there's Engineering Mechanics!! Finally something I do thats related to my diploma...and last but not least.....:SPORTS & WELLNESS!!! WEEEEEEEEEE!!! SPORTS!! At last I get to do some physical stuff to work off the fats...bleah...even Hanafie commented that I put on weight...scared the crap out of me...I've been missing Sam a lot nowadays;I've got NO ONE to talk to on MSN!!! Every time I'm bored and I check who's online, there's absolutely no one I can talk to...so depressing...Sam's the only person in my life that actually shares a lot with me and UNDERSTANDS me...arggggghhhhhh.....so frustrating every evening having no one to look forward to.
An interesting block of text caught my eye at Xin Yi's blog today: She seems really frustrated and disappointed with Kiff. What with him not caring about her, not being there for her, not appreciating what he does for her and how much she cares for him. She also said that she didn't care for his numerous presents but would rather appreciate quality time spent with him. Saddened me by a great deal. Spent the whole day thinking about the two of them. I know I'm not exactly Hitch but either the both of them aren't talking to each other or they have talked but Kiff isn't doing anything about it. Okay, I've only seen her side of the story but if this is the truth about the situation then I have to say its pretty bad.
To top off the whole bucket of emotions, she also remarked on his ego. If I were him I would be screaming in blind rage if I read that line. Everyone has a certain amount of ego; more so in males; and even more so in males with an extra amount of confidence. Throw in academic and social status followed by past achievements, what you're going to get is quality pride and ego.
You don't have to be Freud to know that if you take a stab at this concoction, the victim will definitely not take it like an award. I know, because I have a similar ego but the difference is, I know when to admit my mistakes, accept it and amend them. With Kiff, he defends himself first, followed by attempting to shift the blame elsewhere. I'm not accusing him of anything: thats the way he is. I've learnt to accept that and I don't have anything against it.
Regarding this build up of ego, it probably was a combination of his secondary school life, his enrollment in his stereotypical course Leisure & Resort Management and his various CCAs including Dancing and Wake Boarding. I have had my share of achievements and triumphs; yet I have never exploited and leeched that into my social status. Yes, academically I have attained one of the highest status, but that is inevitable when I receive awards for my efforts. Despite all that, my social life is unaffected. I don't remember looking down on friends who were slower than me, neither did I hold my nose up in the air. (Ryan was a classic example though...)Apart from the occasional impatient burst from me, I made sure that my circle of friends still remained as my friends who I love and appreciate.
Anyway, Kiff has to learn one day that there are many more things that he is still ignorant about. Not just academically and money-wise. Once again I am not condescending him, but rather making an observation.
Thats all I'm going to say for now, so good luck to those two. Now I'm gonna watch DBZ: Android Saga!!
