Sunday, May 31, 2009 . 8:30 AM

Have a few minutes to squeeze in to blog before heading off to work...

It's been non stop action for the past 2 weeks especially...I've had to juggle so many things that I've cut down on sleep and have had virtually no play time. It's either been school, work or you.

School has never been so pressurizing before..FYP is a bomb. And I was really really surprised during the panel review that the judges commented on our progress, which was "further and more advanced than expected". I guess it's because the other groups only did research while mine came up with basic detailed sketches and technical specifications.

Now that we're in stage 2 of FYP, I'm having even more doubts on our capabilities as pre-diploma students to actually manufacture our product. The other groups seem to have easier, smaller scale projects. Mine seems to be a little crude in nature but it serves it's purpose. I've been working on a backup plan in case this one falls apart. At least we can produce something at the end of the year.

Work's been monotonous to say the least. It's very very routine - until it comes to a point in time where I can perform my job without thinking. I've been thinking of carrying a steak knife around with me while at work to scare off anyone who tries to ask for her number....hahahaha..I know you're always delighted when someone shows interest in you and I know how that feels =) I'm happy when you're happy and that's all that matters.




You. The only person in the world who can take me on a roller coaster ride of emotions. From sad to happy to guilty. I promise to do all those things I promised you last night. It's your last day of freedom today and I really hope you enjoy it to the fullest. I'll be thinking of you all the time and I'm going to miss you very very badly for the next 6 days. =(

P.S: I'm not a cry-baby!! =) I love you.

Thursday, May 28, 2009 . 9:07 AM

My first class of the day has started...finally. Saw my idols lose 0 - 2 to the Spanish champions at 5am this morning. I was totally heart broken. Almost cried. Crawled into bed a couple of minutes later but couldn't fall asleep.

So I packed my bag and left for school. Reached my block at 6am, sat down and started to work on my presentation again. Long day ahead...it's not going to help that I haven't slept for 24 hours.

But there's one thing keeping me from falling asleep in class today. =)





It's you. You're on my mind all the time. Your smile always keeps me in high spirits throughout the day.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009 . 12:24 AM

Sunday, May 24, 2009 . 8:16 AM

Two weeks. Three weeks at the very most. I promise you. =)

Saturday, May 23, 2009 . 10:47 PM

I feel so helpless. It's like I've played all my cards and nothing is happening. I seem to have said all I could say and done all I could do. And still you think I'm not serious. It seems like you're already starting to make plans for the end before anything has even begun. I know 2 to 3 weeks seems like an eternity. But what else can I say to convince you that I only see you in my eyes? I feel a little hurt that you think I'm just some playboy who hops around with different girls. Do I mean nothing to you? Am I a disposable thing? Something that can only be used once and then thrown away?

I'm lost. I don't what else to do. I'm not someone who gives up easily so the only thing that I know is to keep trying. I will try again and again and again. Until you believe me or until you tell me you never want to see me again.

I've said this before and I'm saying it again. I meant everything I've said to you before. I'm not lying, I'm not saying it for fun, I'm not twisting my words, I'm not saying it because I have to say it. I say it because I mean it.




When I say I love you it doesn't mean I that like you. It means that I'm willing to give my life for you.

Thursday, May 21, 2009 . 10:22 PM

How I wish time could have stood still this afternoon. Just sit there with you watching the water. So badly didn't want you to go to work. Oh well...had to face Mikee and Co. sooner or later...

Hope you won't work so much next week...Enjoy your last few days of freedom before exams take over your life once again. I'm sure you're screaming "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!" in your head right now =). Hahahahaha....

I look forward to every second I spend with you.
I feel like I miss you from the moment I say goodbye to you.



P.S:
You're way better than wagyu, lamb chops, free flow of coke and her.
In fact, no words can describe how great you are. =)
Again, I'm the luckiest person on Earth.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009 . 8:08 PM

I'm back home from a trip to YCK then Botak and I'm not in the mood to do anything. Just feel like lying in bed and doing nothing.

Today's been a little crazy. It's like someone put a lot of emotions into a pot, boiled it together and I drank everything.

Here are some that I can identify:

Tired - From working.

Frustrated - At projects.

Worried - For tests/exams.

Confused - At this morning/afternoon.

Angry - At myself because I can never seem to be able to say/do anything right.

In Love - With you.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009 . 8:08 AM

These few weeks have been quite boring. With the exception of you of course. It's been school, work, school, work, school, work. Haven't had a proper off day for a long long time. And common test is coming up...time to start mugging like crazy.

You always make my day. You have never failed to do that.


One day I'll show it to you. It'll take a month, a year, 10 years, 100 years. I don't care. You'll see that I meant everything I said. =)

I love you. So much.

Sunday, May 17, 2009 . 12:50 AM

Had so much fun today =) Really tired now (from all that walking) and I have to get up at 8am for work again. Sleep time for me!! See you tomorrow!!

P.S: I love your new hairstyle. =)

Saturday, May 16, 2009 . 12:08 AM

It's a hot and stuffy night. Late into the night doing FYP...why isn't there a proper catalogue for DC motors in the world? So annoying having to search for the one perfect motor one by one...FYP seems way tougher than I thought it would be.

Getting more and more tired as the days pass...losing energy because I have no time to recharge. And not to mention: Fat fat fat. Flabby arms and spare tyres. I so wish there were 48 hours in a day. That would be absolutely fantastic...more time for everything (especially you).

Work tomorrow. Again. Have to wake up at 8am, start work at 10am, finish at 3pm. Hopefully 2pm!! Try to convince the manager on duty that we're overstaffed and low on sales. Cost-cutting strategies. Save money - save the company. Get to see you tomorrow after work!! Woohoo!! =D

Sleep time. I'm yawning even after a 4 hour nap.

Friday, May 15, 2009 . 9:25 AM

I'm in class now and its project period. I'm bored...and I miss you =)

Tuesday, May 12, 2009 . 9:00 PM

Have I mentioned that my dad is the world's biggest asshole? Okay..maybe not the world's biggest but within the top 100. He comes home and I ask him where my mum is. He says she's hospitalised and I ask "What happened to her?" And he can say "Why don't you ask her yourself?". WTF?!?!? Firstly, who would play around with information like that? JUST SAY LAH!! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!? Secondly, what if my mum is paralysed or something? How to call or text her? It's been half an hour and I still don't know what's going on. Can't be bothered to talk to my useless dad...

Sunday, May 10, 2009 . 10:36 PM

Had a lot of fun today...Only got paid for 3 hours for 5 hours worth of work but it was worth it to be with you. And it was priceless to wait for you below your block in the morning and see your surprised smile =)

Legs and feet aching from tiredness but all the fun made up for it. Wish we could have more days like that.

I'm sorry about getting you scolded by your mum. =( My bad. Shouldn't have been so nosy.

I got to go sleep!! Tomorrow morning going gym with Koon Hua. Have to lose that weight!!

Saturday, May 9, 2009 . 9:11 PM

Argghhh...so frustrating today...

Started work early so that someone could get more sleep =) First thing I saw when I went into the outlet was Mas Selamat's grouchy face on the front page of yesterday's newspaper. Ha ha. I knew you were going to get caught one day. Then I went over to the cash register and there were huge words from Mikee (previous night's manager in charge) : LAST NIGHT THERE WAS A SHORTAGE OF $72. DISH-WASHING MACHINE IS SPOILT.

I immediately had that "Wa lauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu" look on my face. I knew I was going to be washing plates, pots and pans the whole day. Who else would do it?

To make things worse, the receipt printer at the cash register wasn't printing out receipts for some reason. That meant no official receipt for the customer and no receipt for me to keep track of the sales.

So the whole day I was taking orders then running inside to get the white copy of the docket for the customer. Then I had to run back and give them their change and manually write down the cost. Oh, I had to navigate as well. Oh, I had to wash the plates too. Oh, I had to teach the new guy how to identify the food. OH!! I had to butter the burger and hot dog buns too!! They should be paying me at least $10/hr for doing three jobs.

Anyway, the dish-washing machine technician finally came down at 4pm to inspect it. What great news he gave us when he said that it can only be repaired on Monday because their office is closed. Don't forget all this while the printer isn't printing out receipts. The manager finally gave up trying to solve the problem on our own and called the cash register company to send someone down to fix it. You must be wondering why we didn't do that in the first place. It's because the E-Point company was being difficult and they said they would charge us $400 to fix whatever the problem was. Idiots.

While waiting for the technician to come down, there was this idiotic, arrogant, wannabe-smart-alec customer. That *&#%^#%$^*%$#^$%!!!! He ordered Mini Fish and Chips which was $4. Then he came back with a receipt that was a few days old which was $16. He wanted to collect a stamp to redeem a meal you see. And you only get a stamp with a $10 purchase in a SINGLE receipt. He came to me and said he wanted to get 2 stamps because there was a total of $20. I told him that he can't do that because you can't combine receipts. That moron had the cheek to tell me that it wasn't stated in the terms and conditions so he's technically allowed to do that. In my head I was like "WTF!?!?". I took his card and turned it over where the T/C was stated and pointed to the very clearly printed "NON - TRANSFERABLE" words. He still looked me in the eye and said "It doesn't mean that I can't combine the two receipts." I was quite fed up by now and told him that I would check with my manager. I went in and asked my manager if he could combine the receipts and he said no. I went back out and told him that its not possible to give him 2 stamps. And now guess what he said to me? He said "I don't think so. I think you're just making this up." By now I wanted to take a knife and just stab him. My patience was really hanging by a thread. I controlled my voice and said "Okay. I'll check with my manager one more time." Somehow his Indonesian accent was getting on my nerves. My manager finally came out and he had no choice but to give him the 2 stamps. The customer's always right. Right?

So the printer finally started printing again when the guy came down at 7pm. We couldn't close the afternoon shift because the printer wasn't working. Shift 1 was finally closed at 7pm and there was a long and impatient queue in front of me.

To top off a day's worth of disasters, she had phone stolen. If I do find whoever stole it (highly unlikely) I'll kick that fag's ass until its redder than a baboon's. Same goes for the people who stole my first 2 bikes and my K800i. I still have not forgotten.

So that's my 10 hours worth of bad luck in one day. The only thing I can smile about are 2 things:

1.There wasn't any shortage from the first shift even with the printer not working.

2.She had more sleep (although she got woken up by my manager's call. Sorry!!) and she had an unexpected off day. Trying to look past the fact that her phone got stolen.

It's 9.42pm and I stink of various smells and I haven't eaten since breakfast. Got to go bathe, eat and install door knobs onto the kitchen cabinets.

Friday, May 8, 2009 . 9:12 PM

I really hope you like it. =)

Wednesday, May 6, 2009 . 6:29 AM

Woke up this morning like this:

=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!

Hee hee.

Sunday, May 3, 2009 . 8:46 AM

I enjoyed last night so much =D and I am soooooooooooooooooooooooo so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so sorry for not telling you that I was riding to work with Wan. I really regret it...

Next next week take off day together okay?=D

Friday, May 1, 2009 . 1:11 AM

1. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me.
2. I'm not a great talker, but I try.
3. In fact, I'm a great listener.
4. I want to be there for everything you go through.
5. I have a poker face, but deep down I'm so happy.
6. I get nervous around you and my heart rate goes crazy.
7. I tend to make the wrong move at the wrong time.
8. I make stupid mistakes when I don't mean to.
9. I want to make you happier than ever before.
10. I want to know everything there is to know about you.
11. Your smile and personality are the best things about you.
12. I love to surprise people. Hopefully you too.
13. Your voice relaxes me after a long stressful day.
14. I think you look just as pretty without make up.
15. I want the both of us to share our lives with each other.