Thursday, July 30, 2009 . 11:06 PM

Baby is sick tonight....poor thing =( . Please get well soon...drink lots of water and visit the doctor if you have to.

Love you.

Always there if you need me.

Been a little busy the past few days...had school on Monday as usual and I didn't realise that I had a practical lesson after a lecture so I wore slippers to class. Damn..had to borrow shoes from an ex classmate...lol.

Tuesday was a slow day...decided to sleep late and pick her up after school. We left MDIS at about 3pm and decided on taking 153 back to Toa Payoh to eat. I changed my mind halfway through the journey and brought her to Mad Jack's at Adam Road. Pretty nice and friendly atmosphere there and it was air conditioned. A big plus for Mad Jack's and a big minus for Botak Jones. Hahahaha...She had the Turkey Bacon Burger which was alot nicer than a regular Botak Burger...probably because they did the bacon Medium-Well unlike BJ where they cook it Very Well Done until its crispy like a biscuit. I had the Swan Chicken or something like that...basically it was a whole turkey drumstick with corn, carrots and mashed potato. We both shared a plate of cheese fries that had mayonaise on it too...super fattening.

Wednesday was tiring. Hahaha...woke up at 5am to go down to her place to surprise her but as usual, she wasn't the least bit surprised. Oh well...just seeing her that morning and sending her to school already made my day =)
She was supposed to come down to my school and then go off together to have lunch at Holland Village, then I would bring her to a nice place nearby to relax but she was pretty tired that morning so we cancelled the date. After my morning class though I decided to skip afternoon classes and head back down to MDIS to send her home.

We took 855 back to Yio Chu Kang and we stopped by at Casuarina Curry. I had Mee Goreng Mutton and she had a lime juice...lol. After lunch we took a walk round a really nice park nearby and we sat down and waited for sunset until 7pm. We took some nice photos before sending her back home.

I've been thinking alot lately...actually I'm always thinking alot but this time its about different things. Alot of "us" thinking and I must say that I see alot in the future. A future which I could never dream that was possible a few months ago. But with you now, I find that anything is possible...a year later, 5 years later, 10 years later. I feel kind of calm now...a little peaceful and secure. I find that I'm worrying alot less than I was before. I've never been so sure before about anything in my life. You're like crystal clear to me; I know what I want and I'm so very happy with what I have now.

I said that you're such a mystery to me but in every other way I feel like I understand you more than anyone else in this world. There will definitely be some things which I don't understand right now but I'm very sure that in time to come, I will slowly but surely understand you much better.

I want to sit on the sand at the beach and hold your hand and have you lie on my lap for the next 30000 sunsets. (That's about 82 years...hahaha..). I want to laugh with you at life and make decisions with you. I want to quarrel with you over silly things and make up the next day =) I want to complain to you about school and work, and in a few years I want to worry about things like money and houses with you.

I want this to never end.

Saturday, July 25, 2009 . 8:19 PM

Went to Pasir Ris last night to pick her up from a birthday chalet and we walked around for a while before sitting down at a nearby park to talk. Left Pasir Ris at about 1am and took a cab back to Ang Mo Kio to send her home before going back home myself. We chatted for a while over the phone until about 3am before finally going to bed.

This morning I was woken up by my mum talking loudly to the maid and I was so very annoyed when I had to get up and leave the room at 10.30am because my brother's tutor was coming.

Anyway, I met her at her block again at about 12.30 and we took the MRT down to Marina Square for lunch at Pasta de Wakaru where her sister works. Pretty good food there I must say. Aglio Olio!! I can remember okay? =) Hahahaha...will order that the next time I eat at Pasta de Waraku.

After lunch we strolled around Marina Square and Suntec and I bought a Superman shirt from DC Comics. On the way back to City Hall Station we stopped by a Charles & Keith store at Citylink to buy a really nice bag for her.

Sent her home at around 5.45 because she had to go get changed for her mum's birthday dinner. One of her lifts was filled with pee by the way...so disgusting. Then I had to wait at the bus stop for 20mins for 163...by the time I got home, I was pretty tired out from everything. Oh well...have to save energy for tomorrow because I'm working from 11 to 11. Fantastic.

I'm bummed. Sad. Demoralised. Depressed. Our time together has been cut down by alot these few weeks because of school and everything else. I wish I could just change the world to suit us.

Thursday, July 23, 2009 . 7:58 PM

Why do I always make silly, stupid mistakes like this?

Why do I always make you upset over and over again?

Why am I like this?

I don't want to be like him. Or any of the rest. I'm not the same.

I'm so afraid that one day I'll become like them without realising it.

I try so hard. But sometimes it's just not good enough.

Sometimes I ask myself: Do you regret?

I just hate myself. Like a fool.

Monday, July 20, 2009 . 11:36 AM

Sunday, July 19, 2009 . 9:33 AM

Went to Sentosa with Esther and her friends Anna and Kee Soon for a picnic on Friday. It was a short picnic but a very fun one. Maybe its because I rarely have picnics..hahaha. Whenever there are girls around, there are bound to have photos so I'll let the photos do the talking.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009 . 6:49 PM

She's having a terrible migrane again. I couldn't have felt more helpless when I saw her just crying from the pain...I wish there was something I could just do to take it all away. Sent her home in a cab and made sure she got into the house safely...please don't forget to take your medication. Don't skip it and try your best to remember to take it every meal time.

I love you.

Get well soon.


(That's me.)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009 . 9:24 PM

I feel terrible. I just woke up from a two hour nap and I think I've become worse. My throat was sore and dry the whole day and my eyes could barely open from the lack of sleep. Working in the sun didn't help at all and I think I've gotten a slight fever. During my nap I kept having nightmares and I was sweating like crazy...my pillow is still damp after 15 mins...My head was throbbing with a migrane the whole afternoon and I even fell asleep for a while on the table. The manager was really nice not to wake me up even though there were customers...

Hope you're feeling better yourself!!! Today's outing should have picked up your spirits from yesterday...Ice Age 3 is really funny isn't it? Hahaha...Jing Xiong kept laughing like crazy when we watched it at J8. Let me guess who I look like: The mammoth right? =D

I hope I'll feel better tomorrow morning...I have another Biomed presentation about bones and the lecturer has his occassional PMS...

Really missed you today =(

This is for us:



I want to hold your hand and climb every mountain together.

Friday, July 10, 2009 . 8:12 AM

At SGH on Wednesday to consult Principal Physiotherapist Dawn Tan:

Thursday, July 9, 2009 . 9:10 AM

Have a little time to blog this morning during class =)

If a picture says a thousand words, what do a thousand words say? If words were meant to express feelings which are difficult to say out loud, then that's what songs are for. To me, there are only three ways I can truly express my feelings: When I speak with honesty and sincereity, with song lyrics, and with words I write myself.

Today I'm going to pick song lyrics; I made my mp3 repeat this song over and over while I was in the bus to school.



I guess that pretty much sums up what I want to say.

Life is never easy and it never goes your way. You can try and try and hope that it will turn out to be better but sometimes it never does, but the difference is who you're with when you go through the tunnel. When you finally emerge into the light at the other side, you'll be so glad that you had that person beside you through everything.

That person I want to go through everything with is you.

It's like you have all the happiness of the world in you. Everytime I see you or hear you, you share that happiness with me. No amount of writing, speaking or singing can ever translate what I feel like everyday now.

Saturday, July 4, 2009 . 9:02 AM

Work work work today as usual...couldn't sleep well last night. It was so hot!! Kept twisting and turning in bed, removed the blanket, slept on my left, my right, my front, my back. Finally woke up at 7.30am and decided to quickly update my laptop so when I get back from work I can start on my project.

Work from 11 to 5, project from 6 to 9, fetch Esther from 10 onwards. Wooohoooo!!!

Keep going, keep going, keep going. Can't afford to lose energy over the next few months. Go go go FYP!!!!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009 . 10:51 PM

Okay...I've got another 2 presentations due next week to worry about..time to go full speed with school again. Time is going to pass so fast that before I know it, it's going to be my semester exams. Tomorrow: Prepare for Friday's trip down to SGH, start research for next week's FYP panel review and begin preparing for BMA presentation in 2 weeks time.

Alot of things can happen in 7 hours..It's fortunate that I'm really that good at what I do because no on else can do it as fast as me. Her laptop seemed fine this afternoon in school but when I got home I found out alot of little problems here and there. Have to reformat it again and redo the whole thing...Wooooo!! Been working on her laptop non-stop since 5pm...my ass kinda hurts because I've been sitting for so long. Ouch. Lol.

Hope you do well for your coming exams... =) I really have no confidence in myself completing my FYP. I mean I've never done anything like this before...it's all new to me and unlike other FYPs, this is something I actually have to build and it has to work otherwise my group will be a laughing stock.

For once I wish someone could hold my hand and guide me through this mess. You've been doing a great job keeping me as stress free as I can be =) It's really helping. Love you!!